I didn't mean to remember

It's so unfair for you to say you love me when everything is over. It's so disappointing to hear you say that you should have told me what you really felt that time when we knew we can't turn back the time. I've invested so much heartache and I became deeply emotionally attach to you that I find it so hard to let go of you even if I knew we belong to someone else. Yes it's true, it's almost three years since everything between us took place, and it's been two years since the last time I saw you. I can still remember what you told me and I can still remember everything that we did and where we made mistakes, and the worst part of that memory is that, when you told me that you love me, but then again it was too late- too late that you can never have me back. It's funny that I used "never have me back" because I was never yours in the first place and you were never mine. I just wish that we could have gone that far but it never happen. It would be a lie if I tell you I don't miss your embrace and your gentle kiss from that night that was very special for both of us. If you only knew that I could have wish for that moment to stop so that I can be with you for as long as I could, but it never happen and everything ended so soon. Everything ended sooner than we thought it would.